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The One I Wait ForWatching as he walks around
Eyes never looking down
I want to see the love that's there
That lays behind your dark, black hair
Pupils that smile at children's play
That long for the future-- not yesterday
A look that I see that will never be fear
But a longing for love that will remain here
Others think that he is odd
Because their bad ways he won't applaud
But what they don't see is that the quality's good
And they all would adore you if they saw what I could
How you talk with adults and enjoy them so
Their maturity helps you grow
A wide smile that isn't flirty
When he sees a woman, his thoughts aren't dirty
A playboy doesn't fit his image
He won't fight with his peers in a scrimmage
For they only want the hottest girl
But he wants a loyal woman to take for a whirl
Lies never escape his mouth
None of his words ever go south
Petty words aren't whispered in my ear
But gentle pleas for me to stay near
Happiness that is not dependent
On an amount of money spent
But smiles that grow as the
Ignorance is the Mind's BlissIgnorance is bliss
Is what was said to me
But how could I yet understand
When I could not yet see?
Days have passed and I am older
This world is a mess
But that one girl doesn’t know
The five year old in a dress
She doesn’t see the bullets flying
Hear the curses soar
She doesn’t see the evil men robbing
And throwing women to the floor
The fact that girls only twice her age
Are getting raped and tossed
Giving birth to little kids
Who don’t know they are lost
Evil things that happen here
Hidden in the dark
All those scars we don’t see
Still have left their mark
The fact that little kids are killed
Every single day
After being conceived for
Just one holiday
Papers can be written on
And filed in to court
Saying to whom you’ve pledged your life
Just isn’t a good sport
She doesn’t know that other ones
Who are killing are her age
But all that I want to say
Is I hope that’s how it stays
Because I see this awful world
And see her eyes are cl
Crush LoveThe innocence of a sweet first love is nothing like a crush.
A crush is a heart stopping, all-the-breath-in-your-lungs-gone feeling, the feeling of being swept off your feet before you've even said hello.
Love is when you bump into someone and say excuse me, and your eyes catch, and a smile overcomes your lips, and you shyly move on
A crush is when you say that they belong to you, and your heart yearns day and night for them to call your name
Love is when you hope that maybe they'll say hi when they pass by you in the hallway, a little grin on their face as they turn to watch you go
A crush is when you always desire to hold their hand and cuddle profusely, never wanting another girl to even look when they are there
Love is the satisfaction in knowing that they'll get attention, but trusting that those precious few moments when you hold hands that you're all they're thinking about
A crush is being away from someone and feeling as if your heart was being ripped from your chest, eve
A Girl Who Couldn't LeaveThe night is black, the day is gray
Why can't you take this pain away
I thought you'd leave, I prayed at night
But you remain a constant fright
Your lips are red, your hands are stained
With the blood of love I gave
Your skin is pale, your scars are deep
Most your promises did not keep
Your smile is large, your teeth are sharp
Ready to tear into my heart
Your lies were harsh, you dug in deep
In my mind they'd always creep
Your nails were long, your claws kept bent
My love of people you'd resent
Your shoes were tall, your leather shined
So you could rub them in my eyes
Your laugh was cruel, your mind insane
My tears would always fall like rain
Your heart consumed, your body craved
Wanted to own me in all ways
Your eyes were dark, your soul was black
It took too long for me to crack.
Longing Between a CastleA man of ivory hair stood within a deep shadow of grey, hands running raggedly over top of his head.
How would he show the princess he cared for her while she was living in a prison that reached ever-higher into that placid sky?
Her voice of golden honey dripped downwards from the heavens, brightening the world with the beauty of her voice as she tried to somehow communicate with the man below.
How could she tell him that she watched him sway in the breeze along with her songs, wishing that she could say she loved him as he melted in her tune?
Every day he would ride past the cage of stone and watch her dance alone within her home to a beat that would only be known to her.
How could he convey to her that his heart longed to understand the words she was saying instead of a simple faint noise, see her beauty up close?
She would clean inside of the mansion, wishing that the dust she continually swept away was the pain of her parents' mistakes leaving so that they would discontinue her imp
Words Betray UsMy mouth betrays my heart's desire
To keep close to those admired
For every single word I say
Comes back to me loaded with pain
A little anger in the day
Yet I could not keep it at bay
As soon as one I knew would listen
I began on my friend dissin'
I love that man real deep inside
So my feelings don't want to hide
But the question remains to be seen
Why did mean words come out of me?
All he did was aim for fun
But today my humor was done
One day off that he so desired
So an attitude I had acquired
Every day so serious
I really had no reason to fuss
But then I complained to a nearby friend
And I feel like it will be the end
The guilt eats me from the inside out
Wanting to die filling me with doubt
Can I never stop being so mean?
I don't think it would happen-- even in a dream
Now every time I see his face
I am filled with deep disgrace
His face of childish glee
He'll never know the jerk was me
DrowningI have fallen,
A great fall.
The cry of birds
The howl of wolves
The whimper of dogs
They encompass me
Air rushes though my hair
I see a black mass
I brace up
My being sunk
My soul singed
An everlasting furnace
Grasped my heart
Lub Dub, Lub Dub
Sang the chorus
An orchestra led by me
Directed by me
Strung by me
This is my path
I have built the bridge,
Connecting different worlds,
And I alone shall walk it.
Mistakes were made
Friends were lost
Regret still lingers on
Like a foul disease
A deep wound
But I shall overcome.
Accompanied by none
This is my journey
A turbulent voyage
Through a river of grief, a sea of terror, an ocean of doubt
A tempestuous expedition
Through a field of failure, a plain of aguish, a forest of remorse
I shall overcome.
I have drowned
I have lived
I have become
I fear nothing.
I shall overcome
Can I Just Be Real?Can I Just Be Real?
Can I just be real, just for a moment
and tell you who I really am and where I've been?
Can I drop the formalities and be myself
and let you into my world,
show you the pain behind my smile,
and the tears hidden in my eyes?
Let me open up and share my story,
the pain of my past
and the misery I've felt.
I've grown up in a Christian household
but I chose to call myself a Christ follower.
For years, life was amazing
and then I entered freshmen year
when I fell in love with a boy
with height of 6'2"
whom I thought looked upon me
like I was a diamond among rocks.
I gave my heart to him
and since then it has never been whole.
He treated me like a toy;
like I was his property and he had the right
to put me through hell
and send me spiraling into depression.
He left me in tears with the shattered
pieces of my broken heart in my hands
not once, but twice
because I was so fo
My HeartMy heart
I wanted to give you my heart,
But it fell apart,
Shattering into little pieces,
With my love oozing out of the creases.
I thought I would be alone forever,
Roaming the earth without a lover.
Being disconnected and empty,
Never complete or happy.
Then you came along,
Making me feel like I belong.
You smiled and hugged me,
And never judged me.
I watched you pick up all the pieces of my heart,
That was all over the place, apart.
You made it whole,
With the pure essence of your soul.
Together we are complete,
Our life is happy and sweet.
You fixed my heart with your love and energy,
Now I can love you freely.
Five Truths I Never Spokei. Fuck you.
People say you shouldn’t end things on a bad note
because god forbid you regret it later,
but I think this was the only truth you ever said to me
and i wish I could learn how to mean it right back
even when my hands aren’t shaking,
then maybe it would finally span the miles between these
two lonely islands.
I always knew I was a bit too much for most people
but I never deserved the words you layed out
(or the ones you held back)
and it took me far too long to come to terms with that.
ii. I give up.
I was never much of a quitter because
I never really participated in anything,
but this game has gone on far too long for my liking
and I’m rather tired of shitting around.
I am the worst with goodbyes but
there is something about you
that’s been gone much longer than you’ve been around,
so I guess I never really said hello in the first place.
Maybe I’ll see you around when you’re whole again,
but today I am leaving you behind, and
UntitledI wrote you a song,
but you'll never hear it.
I found the heart you lost,
but I've decided to keep it
because compared to all
that you've stolen from me,
this is nothing.
I'll hang it on the zip lines
and take it to heaven and back;
then I'll leave it out to dry
on the telephone wires
with the bloody sheets
and aching memories.
You'll see it again, I promise,
but it will be just as mutilated
as I was the day you came to me
and you won't recognize it.
Then you'll know what it feels like
to produce nothing but
Johnlock Poem: Blue Roses and Red VioletsRoses are blue
Violets are red
You're a genius
That's easily said
Your hair is dark
As your skin is light
And your eyes shine
Like two stars
Here in the night
The coat you wear
Like wings when you run
Soul alive as you have fun
Keeping boredom at bay
Luck shining on the day we met
You mean more to me
Then you will ever know
Happy Valentine's Day
John H. Watson-Holmes
Giving inI give up, I give in,
My life will always be filled with sin,
I try so hard, to breathe, to live,
But it all ends up falling, crashing, the supports finally give,
I see so many other people, so happy, carefree,
I think to myself, I think about how much I hate me,
Often suicide lingers in my thoughts,
To slit my neck, to be buried 6 feet below, with my cross,
I'm not strong, never was,
I breakdown, I crack, I hurt, just like everyone else does,
Even knowing other people face the same problems,
I feel alone, I feel weak, I feel like the pain never ends,
Thoughts of jealousy fill my mind,
Sometimes I just wish I was blind,
I wish I couldn't see the truth,
And mend all of the problems of my youth,
But the past is a haunting thing,
And I fear that death is the thing that fate will soon bring.
A Kind Heart.I may not wear the fanciest clothes.
I may not wear the shiniest jewelry.
I may not wear high heels.
I may not wear booty shorts.
I may not be the most stylish person.
I may not be a beauty queen.
I may not be a model.
I may not be the trendiest person.
I may not be a size eight.
I may not be the most popular person,
Or the most fashionable.
Do you know what I do have?
A kind heart.
A kind heart that is loving, empathetic and caring.
I may not be the best looking person in the world but I am a good person.
That's all that matters.
A kind heart always trumps even the most beautiful of features.
Smile Just OnceExplain the dreams that pervade all nights of solitude and bliss, the thoughts of the one who's never met or even real we'll miss
Or better yet unravel the tale of one a person hates, yet after a kind word and a gentle smile, that anger abates
Tell the story of a man whose lips are always sealed, and a woman who saw that and heart toward him concealed
Constantly in each others' presence but not saying hello, neither of them feeling the need for friendliness to show
Spill the facts about how the girl finally broke the war, complimenting him on something, resetting the score
Imagine the shock on that girls face as when she spoke and said, "Hi," the first time they broke the silence, the man was not so shy
All of the time she had thought that he had had a heart of stone; picture her amount of delight when his smile had grown
Two individuals in the same place who never shared a word, when the whole time the problem was that neither of them had heard
Meditate on that girl's thoughts as the
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